I’m really excited writing to you. God knows how much I’ve missed you and your killer advice. A lot has been going on with me and I want to just say how I feel even though I keep acting it’s all good. Life after graduation hasn’t been so easy for me like it’s almost like you have every stage of your life planned out and all of a sudden it hangs. It’s not like you don’t know what you want to do but there’s a whole lot happening and the next stage is almost difficult to reach?.
I’ve been building myself up mentally so I don’t breakdown. I’ve tried distracting myself with meeting new people, I know it’s a bit strange because I’m an introvert but it has really helped because I get loads of beneficial advice. I know I’m not alone but sometimes I just feel really scared. I know I could be a bit dramatic but then I just want you to relate how I feel. I’ve learnt a lot from you, you’ve taught me how to open up especially when I feel this way.
I keep praying and I know God hears my prayers and everything I’m going through is a distraction from the major plan He has for me. But I just want you to tell me again that it’s really fine and you’ve gone through this stage before. I want you to reassure me that this isn’t the time to give up. I just feel everyone is waiting for me to be something I don’t know yet and I’m disappointing them.
Thank you for always reassuring me that I have a beautiful soul and how I deserve better than what I’m always looking for. I just want everything to end in praise. You keep reaching out to me when I’m about making a bad choice, this time around my heart feels shattered. This week has been really emotional for me, I’ve been giving stressed and forced smiles. I can barely concentrate on the things I once loved, losing my meraki gradually. I miss those times when I didn’t have to think of the morrow and what it will bring.
I’m waiting for your reply, call or message. I can’t wait to hear you speak to my heart ? A Bientot.