March came with everything I wanted and boom the sad days kicked in. Everyday became a torture. I was filled with rage. This gender has hurt me too much. Trying hard to celebrate my wins without this deep pang of regret: Like how did I get here? Now let me leave my healing for another day. There’s a friend, we talked but we weren’t so close. 15th April was our last interaction. Why did I feel she didn’t wish me…
Looking back and celebrating the old. Looking forward to the new. Should I talk about it? Maybe I shouldn’t. My head isn’t meant to be beating this fast. Yh I thought it was over. Why am I crying so hard? Why am I awake thinking like I’ve never done before? Only you can control your emotions and try to be a better person It’s funny how I’m a strong girl and a badass but my heart feels so soft March…
First month of the new year alive and healthy starting off 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻. I was excited and ready to start the year on a positive note because I am looking forward to a lot of mind blowing opportunities in 2022. I was also anxious because a new year means I’m getting old. I wasn’t ready for this part of adulthood so it got me bothered a lot. I decided to take my fitness journey to another level by registering in a gym.…
It’s not something you can clearly communicate to others about how you feel. Most times we act like we don’t even feel it. We smile like we are alright but deep down there’s something like a knife slicing your insides. We all know they’ll be healing for every pain but the problem is how long can you survive? Do I cry? Maybe? Sometimes? Hardly. Your chest just hurts. Sometimes I’d rather allow my self feel physical pain and equate it…
“I do not attribute to nature either beauty or deformity, order or confusion. Only in relation to our imagination can things be called beautiful or ugly, well-ordered or confused.”- Baruch Spinoza. I’m not really a fan of movies, boredom make me see one. After one hour of going through my Netflix with nothing to watch, I decided to look at the Spanish genre. This particular movie caught my eye. The duration was just 1 hour and 11 mins. Perfect for…
About my week Lord I lack the appropriate words to say how my week has been. I went to a new church that I didn’t like. It got me upset that I wasted my time being there. On Monday the 18th was my mum’s 50th birthday. She was genuinely happy and I’m glad I was part of it. I was happy seeing how beautiful she looked. I had a meeting with my manager on Tuesday. It was fine but my…
I dreaded September. I kept checking my balance every two days to make sure I would still have a house after my expenses. It was almost like all my closest friends were born in September. Hey God!!! How will I survive this shame and a lot of them got me something on my birthday. Jessica opened the floor of September birthdays. I was glad I was able to settle all the September celebrants. Next thing gist flying up and down…
I didn’t see this trip coming soon. It was expected at some point but later than sooner. After a little argument with the loml, next thing I’m checking train fares, hotel prices and my PTO to suit the day we wanted. My browser was filled with things to do in Galway. I was making budgets to minimise costs I didn’t plan for. After my weekend request for time off was not granted, what a better way to start your week…
“Dispelling the Beautiful Lie” Today I want to begin with a harsh truth. You see, most if not all of us believe what I call the beautiful lie. The lie says this is what really counts: to be wealthy, powerful, influential, attractive, admired, talented, popular, and, above all, valuable. We must make a life that is worth something to others. Worth more than others. The world screams at us to hurry up and matter. Our lives become a reaction to this…
HIS BELOVED One of the fundamental questions we ask in life is: Who am I? My simplistic answer to this question is this: My truest, purest, nonnegotiable identity is the beloved. And in spite of my checkered past, my fabulous flops, my painful history, my deepest flaws, my boneheaded screw-ups, and, yes, even beyond my own beliefs about myself, I am God’s beloved. This is my foundational identity and the foundational identity of every human being. This is important because…