Tranquility

Sometimes I struggle to find peace and maintain it in my life. There’s a lot of hostile energy that exists in the world today and I allow it to get to me. Most times I fail to understand that inner peace is a choice I have to make. They’ve been a lot of ups and downs, conflicting situations that I have to make a lot of decisions which may or may not be favorable in the long run. A lot of things run through my mind like not getting what I really desire in life. 

Tranquility comes when the mind is devoid of any form of anxiety and fear. That’s the peace like a river that flows.     

                                       -Aniekan Johnson 

I’ve been confused much how I could find what I’ve always longed for and be satisfied. I feel like I’m always far from achieving my dreams with a lot going on in my country, the beautiful planet I am privileged to adapt to and a whole lot of negative people and the wrong things as the norm. They’ve been times when I yearned for the peace of God that surpasses all human understanding and other times it seemed so far away. 

YOU CANNOT FIND PEACE BY AVOIDING LIFE – Virginia Woolf

I wake up to hear bomb blast in western countries, crisis, war in the Middle East, school children kidnapped in my country, random shootings, Tsunami killing a nation, earthquake rendering people homeless. 

And stories closer to home, a man sexually abusing his 9month old daughter, a pastor defiling his church members, a brother killing his siblings for a piece of land, a best friend visiting and ends up getting pregnant for the friend’s husband. 

In my personal life, I’ve wondered how much control I have left, choosing my happiness over the wrong set of people. I want to be released from a lot of conflicting emotions in my life and feel that serenity in my heart. My relationships go haywire and I feel lost with everything happening so fast. It fueled my search for spirituality and guided me to a cooler way of living. 

BELIEVING I AM LOVED

I searched and found the truth about me. Being loved despite my great flaws, for terrible mistakes that would be hard to be erased from the memory,  bits of kindness and the vast level of faith shown to me brought something deeper in me. 

CHANGING/MONITORING MY THOUGHTS 

I believed I couldn’t control what ran through my mind. Guess what? I was totally wrong because it didn’t reflect the way I truly felt. Most of them were mostly fear and judgemental based. Since they go unchallenged, I unconsciously accepted them and struggle through life. We give our thoughts the right to shape our beliefs about ourselves and our lives. 

Let’s appreciate the kindness of others, give donations, deal kindly with requests and difficult people. Kindness goes a long way because it allows the flow of positive energy. Peace comes from the inner you and making positive changes. I pray, I think a lot but one thing I’ve come to accept is that God has a plan for me. 

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”

Isaiah 26:3 “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because He trusteth in thee.”

Romans 12:2 “And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”

Philippians 4:19 “But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”