Padding my little feet down the walkway
Feeling like a model in my monokini
I looked at my parents with their broad grin
I knew my expected reaction was to be excitement
My hair falling across my face and I had to brush it off a few times
I felt the stares like the scorching sun
I was probably too cute
I had my moment to take it all in
The golden rays from the sky
The aesthetic palm trees and the cedars waved joyously.
I tied my hair into a knot and wore my cap
My googles were too big but I didn’t have any care in the world.
Now it was time to go under water
The first splash was accompanied with shouts and laughter.
The water probably had something to do with the accents of the people I met.
Squirt guns and floats made my day
Years later walking in with my headphones and magazine
The feeling was different
Everyone was about the technology life
iPads and iPods on the wicker chaise loungers
The chlorinated pool with a blend of liquid body waste
At the sight of the white flag after the dark clouds with life guards stationed at every exit,
I knew it was safe to go in
This time calmer
I went underneath and allowed the water seep all my fears and aches
The cool blue wrapped around my body
I closed my eyes for a long time
Removing voices that weren’t mine
The dissonance of voices were silent
Taking a supine position, I allowed the water to take me where was safe
I stayed afloat
My body had no weight so I wasn’t scared of falling
I stayed above the water for minutes I didn’t take note of.
With the movement of my arms,
I became as carefree as the butterfly
My body forming a reflection of the person I truly want to be with the people I love in my heart.
I felt at peace