Survivor

Days

First were the days that were part of me;

There were days when I didn’t feel alone.

There were days when all I could feel was the warmth of the Holy Spirit.

There were days when all I wanted to do was pray.

There were days when worship was my language.

There were days when all I wanted to do was allow God to take control.

Those were the days I felt hopeful.

Moments

Then came the moments when I do things that are naturally part of me;

Kind to people even though life is cruel to me.

Giving when I’m not sure of my next meal.

Fighting for people even though I know no one has my back.

Fixing things, broken people, and messed-up situations I have no control over.

Loving even when it feels wrong.

Protecting when I always feel exposed.

Being everyone’s favorite but still the odd one.

These are the moments I feel helpless.

Time

Finally, the time to be rebranded;

The time has come to heal completely.

Forgive in the midst of hurt.

Understand that sometimes it’s okay not to be okay.

Acknowledge that friends come and go.

Pain can be rewarding.

Know that contentment is a choice.

God’s love is real and true.

And life has meaning.

This is the time I feel happy.